Insight?

To give you an idea of the bizarre mental world I live in, here is a case in point:

Sometimes, when the boy smses me, I don't feel like replying and then start beating myself up for that, because I feel like I should want to reply. This results in me wishing he smsed less.

Now he has started smsing less, I am getting all insecure and uncomfortable, and getting annoyed about that too.

Bah! *throws hands up in disgust*

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