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Learning not to completely over-react to things that the boy does that annoy me = very difficult given anxiety and depression and stuff happening right now.

Woe, compromise is hard!

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In other news....

St John's Wort is truly the most awful tasting substance in the history of the universe. I've decided it cures depression by being so generally disgusting that you make yourself cured rather than having to drink it anymore. Gawd!

*bleches*

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So you don't all get bored to death!

Here's a fun sex meme I pinched from steph.

1- How old were you when you lost your virginity? Who was it to? Describe the event.
I was 17, it was with my first real boyfriend, on his 18th, as a substantial part of his present. After I'd just found out he'd been telling fibs about how he quit smoking. Gee, I'm a generous soul.

2- What is the strangest place you've had sex?
Hehe, the labs at uni. Whee!

3- Who would you consider "switching teams" for?
Angelina Jolie. Though sort of I play for both teams already. Mmm, girls!

4-Do you prefer to give or receive?
LOL I'll admit it, I'm a lazy shit. How about I just lie here and you have your way with me?

5- One night stands- What's the protocol? Stay the night or get the hell outta there?
I've never really had one, except my threesome, and we stayed the night then. But probably I'd try to get out, I'd probably find it awkward.

6-Favourite body part/parts of the opposite sex?
Tummy and arms, and I've recently developed a new appreciation for the male butt.

7-quickie or long and slow?
Have to admit I always seem to have marathon sex. Well, maybe not marathon, but certainly not a quickie. So yeah, not really experienced with the quickies!

8-Noisy or quiet?
Noisy. I LOVE noisy sex. I enjoy it more when I'm making lots of noise!

9- Ideal amount of sex per week?
Probably twice a day if possible... and that's sex sessions, not orgasms... LOL

10-What's your number one sexual turn off?
Have to agree with Steph here, I can't stand bad breath. Just generally smelling bad is a total downer- you could be the most attractive boy in the world, but if you don't smell nice, I'm not interested. I am fixated on how nice my current boy smells.

11-Number one arousal trigger?
Getting manhandled, or being bitten on my neck.

12-What constitutes bad sex?
The kind that has emotional chaos and recriminations after.

13- Celebrity you would love to shag right now?
Tom Williams after watching the Dancing With the Stars special tonight. Mmm mm!

14- Define sexy?
Yep, agreeing with Steph again- confidence is the go. Cheeky smile, sparkly eyes, good wit. Naughty wit especially.

15- Remember the best sex you ever had. What made it special?
LOL Mine didn't involve love at all... was with Phd, first time we played at my house with all my toys. It was just so long, and langurous and torturously slow, I became this creature of reflex and lust, it was great!

That's all. In other news, don't worry about me kiddies, things are looking up. I hope to return to your regular programming asap.

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Sorry guys...

This blog is tres boring at the moment I know, but I'm going through some very rough stuff right now, and I am not sure if blogging about it would help me or not. I mean how do you decide if you like someone when at the same time you're pathologically afraid of seeing them just because your anxiety levels skyrocket afterwards?

It kinda sucks. But I'll be back sometime, doubtless. I'll get through this, simply because the alternative is kind of dull.

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I believe in a better way...

I rear ended a taxi with my car last night. It's a little bit fucked. So Right nw I'm just incredibly exhausted and stressed and tired of fighting with myself, so forgive me for being all angsty and demanding to know why everything has to be so fucking hard!?!

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Right, that's it...

This sitting around is intolerable. I'm going out for a touch of retail therapy. (Before the real kind.)

Woot!

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Sorry about the lack of posts...

But your g is, once again, having a bit of a battle with anxiety.

Doing okay right now, the moments of calm are thicker and closer together, but it's still a little rough.

It's because of a boy of course. Well, not so much because of the boy, but my reaction to a boy. It's so frustrating really really liking someone, having butterflies, that feeling that I was talking about a while ago, only to have an anxiety attack about it and then just feel numb about him, and not know whether I've really stopped liking him, or whether it's all just buried under the fear.

It's tough, it makes me not want to see him, because thinking about him makes me anxious. I could ramble about this for hours today but I'm trying to stay calm before my trip to the shrink tonight. Wish me luck. (Hell, wish me some kind of mind altering experience so this shit just stops and I can go on to more butterflies and romantic kisses in the rain and so on and so forth.)

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Oh my god OW....

I was just sitting on the grass at uni, making some phonecalls, and OH MY GOD I got ants in my pants and they were biting my butt and I had to struggle really hard to resist the urge to de-pants myself right there and scream in fury at them, instead I sprinted to the nearest bathroom and dislodged two nasty little ants from my underwear. My butt is BURNING now....

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Tee hee....

Kissing in the rain is SOOOO romantic.

*le sigh*

Yes, I am a shameful tease.

*grins*

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Ooo err...

I've been hearing on the radio all morning about the restaurants that had self-serve salads contaminated with rat poison, but ABC Classical weren't saying who it was. Ninemsn have no such qualms, however, and oooerr it was Sizzler! I knew there was a reason I didn't eat there!

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